so chris leaves for college on sunday... I'm definitely not looking forward to this year without him :(

     

 

1. No one is afraid of heights, they are afraid of the fall.
No one is afraid to play, they are afraid to lose.
No one is afraid of the dark, they are afraid of what's in it.

2. You're going to come across people in your life who will say all
the right words at all the right times. but in the end, its always their
actions you should judge them by. its actions, not words, that matter.

3. I love how no matter what age, men are still boys.
And relationships are still a game.

4. I love how no matter what age, men are still boys.
And relationships are still a game.

5. so, hold your head high. don't ever let em define the light
in your eyes. love yourself, give them hell. you can take
on this world. you just stand and be strong and then
fight like a girl.

6. Learn to forget about the people who forget about you.

7. There’s a story behind every person. There’s a reason why they’re the way they are.
They aren’t just like that because they want to. Something in the past created them,
and it’s not a matter of what can fix it, but who.

8. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can , and wisdom to know the difference.

9. Go out there; show em who's boss;
Stick ya middle finger in the air; show em what they lost.

10. I was afraid of love, I thought love took time,
like a fine wine aging in the cellar. I was wrong.
Love is there from the moment you see that person
embrace it let it grow, follow your heart, not your mind.

11. I'm done thinking you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay.

12. We think we know who we are, but we don't. Not until something bad happens to us.
( Pretty Little Liars )

13. I guess you get used to somebody, kinda like having them around.
I guess you get used to the way they make you happy, bring you up when you're
feeling down. I never dreamed when I was letting you go that I would wake up
and miss you this much. I guess you get used to somebody. I guess you get used to
being loved.

 

14. This has everything to do with him. This is about knowing the difference
between right and wrong, between the truth and a lie. He took that away
from you and if you can't tell the difference, then you can't trust anyone. And
if you can't trust, you can't love.

 

15. It’s a proven fact that men fall in love quicker than women.
But it’s also proven they fall out of love quicker too

 

 

Remember Chris? Well long story short, he cheated. The weird part is who I heard it from. He told me. Yeah, wacky I know. Basically it was his last week of school ever, he's a senior, and he had been acting off, I assumed it was nerves but when I asked him about it he just flat out told me. He told me he cheated on me in the first month of our relationship, it's been almost four months, and he said it was eating at him. He only told me the half of it though and I kept finding out more and more from him about all that had happened. This whole thing just butchered our relationship and that's the sad part. I trusted him 100%. I never doubted anything he said and I think that's where I screwed myself.

Naturally I broke it off right away, told him I never wanted to speak to him again, blah blah. But I couldn't get myself to quit talking to him. I came to the conclusion, whether it be stupid or not, that I was going to continue to be with him. I figured if I kept him I'd eventually realize one of two things, either he's worth it or he's not. Simple as that.

I frown upon girls like this too and that's the sad part. Once something like this actually happens to you it's hard to do the "right" thing. I've heard a cheater's always a cheater but he's the only thing that gets me up in the morning, nobody can make me smile quite like he can, ultimately I love the kid and I don't know if I'm strong enough to give up on that. I don't believe people can change, but who knows, I could be wrong.

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